Errmm, hello (echo,echo). I haven't been here for so long, there are cobwebs on the keyboard! While my Little Miss has been getting easier and easier to handle, now she is ten months old (TEN MONTHS?? where did the time go?), I've taken on some work. I initially agreed to one project, but I've ended up with two, running concurrently, working from home, and I'm afraid my ass is being kicked with it all.
I'm really enjoying the work, and I had a 'lightbulb' moment last weekend that I am really beginning to feel like myself again - the whole pregnancy, feeding, new baby thing made me feel so unlike me, but now I feel I'm back and really enjoying my life again. I'm fitting in the work while Little Miss sleeps and at evenings and weekends, and while this is ok, I've decided I won't be doing two time-sensitive projects at the same time again. It simply pulls me in too many directions and I spend all of my child-free time working. I think this is just part of the bedding in and learning what I can realistically achieve, whilst still being a full time stay at home mum. Blogging is certainly one of the things that has dropped off the radar, and I don't like it that my creative projects are the thing to go.
Anyway, the other project that I have on the go, is trying for baby number two! This has been slightly stalled, as my periods still haven't returned after I finished breast feeding, six or seven weeks ago. I very much want to become pregnant, but at the moment, thankfully, there isn't the edge of desperation that there was before when we were trying and failing with baby number one. If I were younger, I think I'd be very relaxed about it all, but at 38, I can really hear time marching onwards, especially as we would ideally like 3! Oops, got to go - Little Miss is calling.
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